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Asami felt her admiration for Gabriel grow with every day she spent together with him and Nathan.
So gentle and yet so strong.
She tried to put herself in his shoes to gain fuller understanding of what he was going through.
How it must have been to love a person who never thought of you as more than a friend?
Who treasured you as a friend but never more. For who you came second after Annalise while for you he is life, so much that you couldn't part with him and followed him into the war which you would have never stepped in but for Nathan's way lay there.
And you had to watch him loving not you and put up with it.
And he showed so little interest in you, while there was she. Never noticed your birthday. Was there a party to notice? I wonder. I guess no.
And then you see with your own eyes his pain, his tragedy, his resolve... You stay with him while his soul is writhing in excruciating loss and rage and hatred... And you are with him and he is bad with you. And yet you are with him. Trying to do anything if there is anything at all to alleviate your life's - Nathan's - tourture.
When Nathan was shot... it must have been as if you were shot yourself. You couldn't believe it. You couldn't stop fighting. There was just no way you could let him go. How horrible it must have felt all the days you had been waiting for Nathan to come round.
And than finally he is nice to you.
You understand him as no one else.
And he grows to be even nicer. And you are happy. And he feels happy. He has never felt so before. Still...
"I will always be your friend"
"I know" You know. And you accept it.
And all of a sudden...
One peaceful morning you find the ring on your finger. The ring which is too precious. Important. The only good thing from Nathan's father, his family. Now "yours. Forever."
And you never thought of being thought of by him as precious. As so important. And you know how important this ring is for Nathan.
And you are so happy that it's painful. And your tears spill out.
***
Gabriel is calm. And wise.
He has had his share of experience.
He has read books.
And he is shrewd to read through people's hearts.
And he is kind. So nice. I suspect, though, his love made him nicer, kinder, stronger.
Nathan thought once that he loves you for you make him a better person. But you can probably say the same. You become a better person being with Nathan. For Nathan. And it's just so natural.
Gabriel, I know that you and Nathan are with me now. That you are in the nature. Gabriel, you are the gentle sunshine at dawn, at sunset. Nathan, you're in the wind that smells of leaves, in trees, in the earth...
I want to stay with you. I want to learn from you.
Gabriel, to be as calm and wise and you.
To be as loving as both of you. I want to be capable of loving that much.
Thank you for becoming the ever beautiful nature.
Thank you for being with me.
So gentle and yet so strong.
She tried to put herself in his shoes to gain fuller understanding of what he was going through.
How it must have been to love a person who never thought of you as more than a friend?
Who treasured you as a friend but never more. For who you came second after Annalise while for you he is life, so much that you couldn't part with him and followed him into the war which you would have never stepped in but for Nathan's way lay there.
And you had to watch him loving not you and put up with it.
And he showed so little interest in you, while there was she. Never noticed your birthday. Was there a party to notice? I wonder. I guess no.
And then you see with your own eyes his pain, his tragedy, his resolve... You stay with him while his soul is writhing in excruciating loss and rage and hatred... And you are with him and he is bad with you. And yet you are with him. Trying to do anything if there is anything at all to alleviate your life's - Nathan's - tourture.
When Nathan was shot... it must have been as if you were shot yourself. You couldn't believe it. You couldn't stop fighting. There was just no way you could let him go. How horrible it must have felt all the days you had been waiting for Nathan to come round.
And than finally he is nice to you.
You understand him as no one else.
And he grows to be even nicer. And you are happy. And he feels happy. He has never felt so before. Still...
"I will always be your friend"
"I know" You know. And you accept it.
And all of a sudden...
One peaceful morning you find the ring on your finger. The ring which is too precious. Important. The only good thing from Nathan's father, his family. Now "yours. Forever."
And you never thought of being thought of by him as precious. As so important. And you know how important this ring is for Nathan.
And you are so happy that it's painful. And your tears spill out.
***
Gabriel is calm. And wise.
He has had his share of experience.
He has read books.
And he is shrewd to read through people's hearts.
And he is kind. So nice. I suspect, though, his love made him nicer, kinder, stronger.
Nathan thought once that he loves you for you make him a better person. But you can probably say the same. You become a better person being with Nathan. For Nathan. And it's just so natural.
Gabriel, I know that you and Nathan are with me now. That you are in the nature. Gabriel, you are the gentle sunshine at dawn, at sunset. Nathan, you're in the wind that smells of leaves, in trees, in the earth...
I want to stay with you. I want to learn from you.
Gabriel, to be as calm and wise and you.
To be as loving as both of you. I want to be capable of loving that much.
Thank you for becoming the ever beautiful nature.
Thank you for being with me.