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Here is how their settlement started.
With nothing and no one to rely on, with no safe place to run for they headed to the place no one had ever dared come. Led by the one who had once found himself in the same situation. This is what you resort to when you can expect help from nowhere and trust none.
With a bitter grin Asami observed their everyday life in the new settlement. Or magnificent Great Sect leaders, here is the Evilest Evil you've ever known, an indiscriminate murderer, dark arts cultivator! Oh see him, he's planting 'brothers and sisters' with a child. Beware of him! He's arguing with Ah Qing whether to plant radishes or potatos.
Asami like the spirit of comradeship at the settlement. People just lived and strived to find joy in lives they could barely save. There was no pretence, no fighting with each other. Might it be that other Sects started in an alike way? That they had been nicer homy places built on trust until they didn't have to care about survival anymore and found so much time on their hand as to start bothering themselves over such notions as clan's prestige, superiority and honor.
Wei Xian, it's a nice settlement you've founded.
And friends surround you, But there are dear friends whou you cannot reach. There are family who officially severed all ties with you. There is hardly a person in the whole world, apart from the above mentioned family and friend, who doesn't condemn you or/and reckon you an evildoer.
You aren't alone. But you are lonely. And unfarely judged.
'...let others decide to praise or to blame, let gains and losses remain uncommented on. I know what I should be doing. And I can control it.'
So you said bitterly to Lan Zhan. A dear friend who came to see you and for a fleeting moment made you happy.
But... everyone has their things to do, their paths to walk. He would hardly come to visit you in your new home again.
Asami felt acutely that he was right.
Everyone was walking their paths.
Lan Zhan has his clan to take care of and hid load of responsibilities.
A Young Master Jin's servant girl who spoke up for Wei Ying when Sect Leaders were readily pouring durt on him.
Sect leader Jiang and Lady Li who remained your family in the limits they could allow not to endanger Yunmeng clan.
The general of Wen Chao. A strong clever man with impossible willpower who chose to be a servant to an unworthy man and carried it on impeccably.
And you, Ah Xian.
You have been doing well... So did Asami want to say but... You have been pretending. You weren't well. You are scared, resentful, upset, lonely, frustrated...
You never noticed you couldn't keep it under control anymore.
And now a man - not an enemy, but a father of your sisters child, a man who was doing his best to support his wife and so you! - died because of your mistake.
Your sister who is waiting longingly to see you...
Your brother who has always kept worry about you in his heart...
Lan Zhan who trusted you...
The world who have been seeking an excuse to declare you a foe...
Ah Xian.
Asami was terrified.
For the Wen's people finally settling in their eerie refuge, that has just grown to be a nicer place.
For the all few who love you.
For you! Will you be able to ever forgive yourself, Ah Xian???
Why should you have been so frightened? Why should you have relied so much on the power of resentful spirits? Why...
Asami sniffed bitterly: what else did you have to protect yourself?
With nothing and no one to rely on, with no safe place to run for they headed to the place no one had ever dared come. Led by the one who had once found himself in the same situation. This is what you resort to when you can expect help from nowhere and trust none.
With a bitter grin Asami observed their everyday life in the new settlement. Or magnificent Great Sect leaders, here is the Evilest Evil you've ever known, an indiscriminate murderer, dark arts cultivator! Oh see him, he's planting 'brothers and sisters' with a child. Beware of him! He's arguing with Ah Qing whether to plant radishes or potatos.
Asami like the spirit of comradeship at the settlement. People just lived and strived to find joy in lives they could barely save. There was no pretence, no fighting with each other. Might it be that other Sects started in an alike way? That they had been nicer homy places built on trust until they didn't have to care about survival anymore and found so much time on their hand as to start bothering themselves over such notions as clan's prestige, superiority and honor.
Wei Xian, it's a nice settlement you've founded.
And friends surround you, But there are dear friends whou you cannot reach. There are family who officially severed all ties with you. There is hardly a person in the whole world, apart from the above mentioned family and friend, who doesn't condemn you or/and reckon you an evildoer.
You aren't alone. But you are lonely. And unfarely judged.
'...let others decide to praise or to blame, let gains and losses remain uncommented on. I know what I should be doing. And I can control it.'
So you said bitterly to Lan Zhan. A dear friend who came to see you and for a fleeting moment made you happy.
But... everyone has their things to do, their paths to walk. He would hardly come to visit you in your new home again.
Asami felt acutely that he was right.
Everyone was walking their paths.
Lan Zhan has his clan to take care of and hid load of responsibilities.
A Young Master Jin's servant girl who spoke up for Wei Ying when Sect Leaders were readily pouring durt on him.
Sect leader Jiang and Lady Li who remained your family in the limits they could allow not to endanger Yunmeng clan.
The general of Wen Chao. A strong clever man with impossible willpower who chose to be a servant to an unworthy man and carried it on impeccably.
And you, Ah Xian.
You have been doing well... So did Asami want to say but... You have been pretending. You weren't well. You are scared, resentful, upset, lonely, frustrated...
You never noticed you couldn't keep it under control anymore.
And now a man - not an enemy, but a father of your sisters child, a man who was doing his best to support his wife and so you! - died because of your mistake.
Your sister who is waiting longingly to see you...
Your brother who has always kept worry about you in his heart...
Lan Zhan who trusted you...
The world who have been seeking an excuse to declare you a foe...
Ah Xian.
Asami was terrified.
For the Wen's people finally settling in their eerie refuge, that has just grown to be a nicer place.
For the all few who love you.
For you! Will you be able to ever forgive yourself, Ah Xian???
Why should you have been so frightened? Why should you have relied so much on the power of resentful spirits? Why...
Asami sniffed bitterly: what else did you have to protect yourself?